8 days of hardship and return to innocence

Mum's gone away to Shanghai for a well-deserved break... gonna have to do things all by myself, wash clothes, cook. Sis so bz of late that I hardly c her, not home after I'm back at 3+, guess I have to do the chores... As for the floor, think I'll just sweep and mop on the day she's back... haha Been quite decadent the last few days, drinking, sleeping late, smoking a few fags (which I will stop, I think). End product, ran a miserable 14min for 3k earlier.

I had some interesting and engaging conversations with some old pals, in particular about "Return to Innocence". Sometimes when you're younger we might be adventurous and try out funny stuffs which we shouldn't have on moral grounds. When you get older, you snap out of it and want to go back to what you once were... It's easy to make a white sheet black, but from black to white is impossible the best we can do is gray. In four words, we can say it's 回头太难. Of course you can also choose keep things to youself and 'appear' white. I don't advocate lying but sometimes it's better not to tell the truth. The truth can cut like a scythe through grass, not everyone has a heart big enough to handle the truth. Relationships break down because sometimes we don't wanna lie and cannot tell the truth. I wonder if there exists a way around the deep dark secrets that I believe most of us carry?